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"With all its shame, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world…Be cheerful. Strive to be happy."

— Max Ehrmann

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Thanks Austin, you saved my life...Well, my paper

This post is dedicated to Austin, the nice guy at the UVU Library that helped me find some articles so I could finish my paper on Post Modernity and Zygmunt Bauman... I hear that collective sigh from all of you.. I hear Barb saying, " yeah sweetie, good luck with that."
Well I totally rocked my class presentation on him.. Everyone said... but this paper has to be PERFECT!! I need to pass this class to graduate and I think I'm acing all my other ones...so, this class, Contemporary Social Theory is pretty much the hardest one I have, and I have a lot of hard classes!!
Charlotte.. you're going to be pissed but picture it... I was wearing pink knit beenie, a gray sweatshirt ( inside out) black lounge pants, ankle socks and my navy blue house shoes when I could not find some articles that I printed out the other day.. I was finally on a roll and in the zone about this paper and ARRRGGGGG , Where the capital H were some important papers... I almost cried, but instead, I said, " I'm just going to go to school and go the library..." that's right Charlotte, I was a hot mess in 5 different colors and didn't give a crap.. I went to school like that...ME!! and I NEVER leave the house undone!
The check out desk sent me to the reference desk and that's where I met him.. Austin.. bless his heart, he didn't seem to mind that I looked liked a homeless person, he just wanted to help and he helped... He helped me print out six more resources for my paper and told me where I could find a book by Bauman that the school library carried ( Barnes and Nobles and Borders do not carry books on post modernism and Liquid Modernity for some reason)... I heard the Angels singing... my paper is saved and I am still in the zone.. please bless I don't lose it .. My paper is due at one pm on friday....

( this post was a five minute time out because I PROMISED y'all a post every day for the month of December)

So, to the Utah Valley University Library and to Austin...Thanks for saving my paper, and my blog

ps... there are a lot of cute guys who hang out at the library..why haven't I gone there all semester?????

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

it's nice to feel special sometimes......

side note.... I have 6 Melissa's in my phone and I talk to all of them!! I love them all.... but I digress... This blogging everyday for the month of December is harder than I thought, but right now I'm feeling sentimental, and this might be a little different than my usual stuff....do I have usual stuff since I am so sporadic in blogging, hmmm... yes :-)

I have girl's date night with my friend Melissa every monday night...we call it girls night, because a boy use to come, but he bailed on us.. but anyways, now it's girls' night until he comes back if he ever does... but we spend a little time every Monday dancing around the living room to our favorite jams, and I like to dance with one hand waving free... I got that from a movie, " Elizabeth Town" some people don't like it, but I did, and I own it! but anyways.... I have a new favorite singer this week I'd like to share with you... I wanted to share Adele's song called " Chasing Pavements" but I couldn't get the embedding code, so here is another song that I love of her's...

it's called Hometown Glory:

Melissa and I have these little matching journals.. in them we write whatever thought we hear that we just love! We get alot of our quotes from television ...And this past week I saw a movie with my friend Becky and I got a quote from it...
" It's just nice to feel special sometime." I put that one in my book

I'm having a moment people! I'm not sad, but I'm pondering special moments and the people who ever made me feel special and the ones that make me feel special....well, I'm pondering...enjoy the song, and you can find " Chasing Pavements" on You Tube as well... and Missi.. I'm STILL chasing pavements, so I am SO NOT the one to tell you if you should or shouldn't do the same....and Deanna... are you still " Chasing Pavements" ..

Oh Adele..you speak to me....you speak to me..


Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Running Errands

I just love Costco... don't y'all... everything in that store is in bulk! Who needs that much? Well, I mean what single person needs that much right.. I'm sure that's what people think when single people go in to a Costco
" They aren't married, what could they possibly need here?"
Well, today I just felt like going is all.. I wanted to get some chicken because I'm going on a salad thing, and they sell it cheaper than at Smiths and Albertsons.. but I don't need to tell everybody that now do I?
At the Costco I saw the Asian chicken lettuce wraps..and they looked like a a good dinner for tonight so I bought a package...
I checked out, and had my receipt in my hand for the lady that looks through your stuff when you leave

Nosey Costco Lady: " Oh you know what I do with the lettuce wraps, I buy some of the chicken strips and cut them up and add it to the chicken it comes with and the sauce, I don't know about YOUR husband, but MY HUSBAND doesn't think there is enough chicken that comes with it, and I found that works and he's happy."

Me: " Oh that is so nice to know... I'll keep that in mind.....and WHEN I GET a husband... I'll try to remember that, THANKS "

I just love Costco

Monday, December 1, 2008

Friday, October 17, 2008

Sorry to Keep you waiting

I want to rename my blog, letters to the Crazy Lady... it's kinda sad when I think about it, but my life is so boring right now...and the highlights are all the things that I want to say to her but won't because deep down I'm not as mean as I say I am...even if I did yell at these two kids last night who were pretending to be crippled that I hoped that they got hit by a bus, because it's wrong to fake being in a wheel chair when there are people who really have to be in in one....
I mean maybe I could write about my crazy ex who just recently started calling me and texting me again, but I reminded him that even though I have little to rate him against, he WAS the worst kisser I ever had to kiss and there is no need for him to continue calling me...but then, he might come across my blog and be offended and I wouldn't want to hurt the fragile male ego right....
so hmmm...

Dear Crazy Lady,
Seriously..you do laundry EVERY DANG DAY...that's suppose to be for both our apartments.. What, I'm suppose to ask you if I can wash a few loads? No, I don't think I want to do that...what, do you only have one outfit, do you HAVE to do wash everyday..think about the water you are wasting for a minute....does your dang dog pee on stuff? Why the heck are you doing laundry EVERY FREAKING DAY? AND a better question is, why the Heck do you start doing wash at 6 am..for the love of Pete..calm down!!!

Oh and Dear Crazy Lady,

Stop being mean to the nice old man next door. He's SPECIAL, like SPECIAL, and YOU of all people have the gall to call him crazy? HAVE YOU LOOKED IN THE MIRROR?! He's a sweet old man who plays red light green light with the little kids across the street...he likes the green otter pops in the summer and he calls me kido.. He's sweet..and kind and has the mental capacity of a nine year old ... You are a day pass crazy and have the nerve to be mean to him... Well, I have his back and I just won't stand for it.. I don't like you or your ugly dog.... by the way, if your dog continues to howl for hours on end... I might have to suggest you get it's voice box removed...

Have a great day

Side note to Barb and Charlotte, my favorite sisiter in law and my favorite cousin:
now that we're an eternal family...you're stuck with my meanness....I hope that y'all are okay with that.. I love you both so much!!!

** crazy lady doesn't REALLY look like that...but I might post a picture of her ugly dog that is barking RIGHT NOW !! I HATE THAT DOG

Saturday, August 23, 2008

...in the end

...it's like that one thing I heard...people meant to be together always find their way in the end...so hopefully your hand will fit in mine,and my place will be in your arms; we'll find comfort in each other...and it won't be too long til we find our way.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

so....I'm going to have to start over

the lady in the basement has pushed me over the edge..and I've been keeping something from you since it all started...she's driven mad..and I am back to drinking soda AND swearing....ugh.. I just needed to make it vocal ( can it be vocal since I am typing this...) well, she and some one else have made it near impossible for me not to say potty mouth words...so in another effort here I go again.... this is day one of no swearing..well... I'll start tomorrow.. I almost forgot that I've been up for a couple of hours and I've already said a few choice words..BLAST !

hmmm....since I've been good about not saying the really really bad ones.. I'm still going to be proud of myself for the long run that I had..it was the longest ever to say the least...

and so tomorrow it begins...no swearing...

I'll give up soda again after my friend Emma comes back to town..she visited the wonderful state of North Carolina and is bringing me back some cheerwine.. I am too excited and yes.. I'M GONNA DRINK IT !!! YUMMY

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

No you'll never get a chance....

so tonight I went to dinner with some friends, I LOVE my friends..well..one guy was new, and he wasn't my friend, but when he told me about serving a mission in North Carolina and for his love of Bojangles Boberry biscuits...I thought we could be friends...I thought it was the start of a BEAUTIFUL relationship...and then at dinner he miss took me for a Tarheel fan, which is a honest mistake, so I was like, no, I'm a DUKE fan.. I'm a die hard blue devil..now, having served in the south, in North Carolina, you would think that this boy had some common sense.. and would've kept his mouth shut after that.. I mean SERIOUSLY there are certain things you don't discuss in order to maintain friendships... 1) Politics 2) Religion 3) the Duke vs UNC rivalry .. well he just kept going on and on..and he had the nerve to say that Coach K was an evil man ... I threw food at him in the restaurant.. and salt, and Ice, and I wanted to throw my Dr. Pepper at him since soda has a tendency to stain.. I even eyed the ketchup bottle ( it was the squeeze out kind... that boy had the nerve to touch me.. and want to hold my hand!!! AND TOUCH MY KNEE... he would wink at me and say we could work it out.. I was like, " The hell we can, I'm calling my momma." ( Carolyn, not the one down the street from you, my mom mom here in Utah who wants me to tell you hello) anyways, I told her what a jerk I was sitting with, and then I handed him the phone so my momma could call him a jerk...and he thought I was playing...
Now Coach K isn't Joel Osteen or anything, but he's a great man, and a great leader, and a nice man..you don't have to like DUKE, and on occasion, I've even cheered on Carolina when it came down to it...especially if they were playing Maryland..but seriously, don't disrespect Coach K..you don't see me calling Dean Smith a MORON...good golly.. I've been hot about this since dinner.. I needed to get this off my chest.. Brandon says that I will forgive his friend..and CeCe says, that she is staying out of cause she has never seen me mean before and doesn't want the wrath..me.. hmmmm I don't think I can get over that....


Monday, June 23, 2008

I'm raising my pentacostal hands for you Charlie

I'm prideful when I talk about home.. my home, the place I grew up. I do believe that I had the best time every growing up.. I had the best friends ever, and I lived in the best state in the union... North Carolina...where I learned that a cook out is when you have hamburgers and hotdogs on a grill.. a barbeque is SO MUCH more than that, it's a pig pickin... they always get that wrong in Utah... and a purse is where you put your change, a pocket book is where you put your change purse, and a bill fold, can also be called a wallet....and so what if I still say oil in a way that makes you laugh, it's the proper way to say it... I dated a guy once who said that he knew I was mad and I said how so, and he said, your accent comes back..oh bother...that boy was dumber than a ten pound sack of stupid... I could tell he was lyin every time his lips moved.... but I digress.... I have a confession to make..something about me that will never, no never change.. I love T.V evangelist and Christian Rock....Joyce Myer ( the preacher lady), Joel Osteen ( I was too excited when I got to go to his church last month when I was in the Houston area... happy heart)... I still sing Michael W. Smith Songs, and DC talk.... I have ALL their cds.. I just can't give it up... sometimes when I'm getting ready in the morning, it's all I can do to not raise my pentacostal hands while I sing along...Char, I just feel it sometimes...

Saturday, June 21, 2008

....there's someone else

You hold my hand and kiss my face... I kiss you back. You say that you love me, and in some way I know that you do, but I'm not IN love with you, and you're not IN love with me. That's the thing about replacement people, we fill the void that someone else has left, so we don't feel the emptiness, so we don't feel the hurt. It's not that we don't care about each other, it's just that we care about someone else more....

Thursday, June 12, 2008

I'm kinda sorry

Dear Crazy Neighbor Lady that lives in the basement apartment,

I'm sorry if you get evicted, I really kinda am, but that dog you have jumps on people, and it's not cute...and you say it's a therapy dog but you leave it alone ALOT and every time you do, it howls and yelps and barks...just the other day I thought you were dead in the basement. You told me that you have all these problems with you, and how that dog saved your life that one time.. I thought history was repeating itself, and you were in some type of coma, or dead or something... maybe you fell and couldn't get up, who knows, and so I had my friend come with me to check on you, since you don't have a phone to call you on..well, your doggy cried and barked..and you were just at the store...FOR AN HOUR !!!
And you lock the laundry room that we are suppose to SHARE, you say it's because guys are at my house alot that you don't know..( um, lady, my friends aren't the ones that are CRAZY), but it's really inconvenient for me to have to knock on your door so you can unlock the laundry room that we are suppose to SHARE, (remember how the back door to my place is just as easily accessible by the people you have coming to see you..)
and today, I got to come home early from work, and I wanted to take a nap..and I guess you were gone again, because YOUR DANG DOG CRIED and HOWLED and BARKED for TWO FREAKING HOURS before I had to go to Velour for battle of the bands....needless to say. I REALLY hate it when I can't take me naps....so...if you get kicked out....I'm really kinda sorry...

ps... I think you should know that although I'm polite and say thank you when you bake me little treats...I don't eat them...I throw them away...it's just cause I don't know you..and you let your little dog jump on everything..it grosses me out...sorry.


ps.... 6/13/08

this morning, like last morning you decided to do laundry at 6:30 in the morning...oh, that's the same time that I start getting ready for the day...um, I hate it when the water turns cold...you're home all dang day....MUST YOU DO WASH WHILE I'M IN THE SHOWER !!
I'm starting not to feel bad about the possibility of you getting kicked out!!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Breaks Over

...so I took a month and a half off..for this I do apologize....stay tuned, because I have A LOT to say.... *sigh* so much to say..


Tuesday, April 15, 2008


*** Since I've had a few hours to cool off, this blog is edited for content and now rated at LEAST PG-13***

Ya know...I think it takes a lot to make me mad,I mean, I've taken anger management twice and I think that I've come a VERY long way, especially now that I have eliminated alot of the language that comes out of my mouth ( I've let some bad words slip...) BUT TODAY, TODAY I get an award for holding my temper..
( Knock Knock) ( cause the doorbell at my house doesn't work)
me: "hello"
one of two men from Provo City: " hello, we've had some complaints about this chair on your front porch."
Me: " So,( then I pause for a nano second, I realize that I was being rude) Are you serious?"
Man: " Yes, well it's against zoning to have a house item on the porch."
Me: " Well, I had some really cool vintage chairs on my porch that belonged here, and someone stole them, so I'm just hoping someone steals this too, and saves me the trouble of getting rid of it."
Man: ( he has a shocked look on his face) " Um, well, it has to be moved"
Me: I'll stick it in the yard then and someone will come pick it up."
Man: " Do you think someone will?"
Me: " Did you not hear me, someone walked onto this porch and stole the other chairs, how about if I put a sign on it that says FREE?"
Man: "Well it has to be gone in 14 days"
Me: " oh good gosh, fine whatever, come back in 14 days and it will be gone."
Man: " Okay..."
Me: " and PS..only in FREAKING Utah! "
( I shut the door on them as they are talking, I don't need to hear it... I mean, SERIOUSLY...SERIOUSLY??? %$#^@#....Ya, know, I deserve the award for keeping what was in my head from coming out of my mouth ... I KNOW I can get loud, and I KNOW that I am mean, but bless my soul for not cussing those two stupid @#$%^#@ #$%^#@$ out... SERIOUSLY!!???
So, I called Captain Awesome to bring his car over so we could move it since he drives an SUV and of course, he's awesome so he comes over, but we have to run errands first...maybe he thought the drive would calm me down, but ya know what I saw on our little drive...I saw a old mustang parked in the front yard of some house, I saw a LIVING ROOM set in another...a computer desk on a porch...trash littering the streets, a couple of homeless people taking their belongings around town in stolen grocery carts, and graffiti drawn by the bored bad #$$ youth of the city...YEP... Ya know what Provo City... why don't you hire someone to pick up the litter, why don't you hire someone to paint over the crap spray painted on buildings, why don't you freaking find something for teenage kids with parents who don't watch them, something to do...WHY DON'T YOU FIND A PLACE FOR THE HOMELESS TO LIVE, so they aren't roaming the streets and WHY DON'T YOU GET OFF MY FREAKING BACK ABOUT A CHAIR ON MY FRONT PORCH THAT MY FRIEND SITS IN WHEN HE COMES OVER!!!???
ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME? I mean, I get a ticket for a head light that doesn't work, never mind that there are more pressing issues like , I don't know the war on drugs to deal with, my little head light is a big deal..and now , I need to get a chair off my porch, because , humph, maybe someone thinks it's an eye sore...well I think little girls with white tights and black patent leather shoes is an eye sore, but you don't see me going up to their mommas saying, "Please lady, white socks and black shoes ARE NO GOOD!" I think when people pierce the middle of their bottom lips look RIDICULOUS,but I don't walk up to them and say, " EWW, gross, how do you kiss with that?" SERIOUSLY IT WAS A CHAIR ON A PORCH! Give me a %$^#@# %$%^&*^ break!
I've been wearing this bracelet on my ankle, first til my friend Goob came home from Afghanistan, then til Court, my best friend Lisa's husband came home from Iraq and then I decided I was going to wear it til the war was over completely...I still have it on my ankle ( almost six years later) so it seems to me like we have more pressing things in the world to worry about then some stupid chair on a porch that is part of a house that I pay more than $600 dollars a month to live in...

Monday, April 7, 2008

An End to Soda drinking...so long fizzy drink

I love soda, I just do... I just love it...I love the way it just fizzes in my mouth and perks me right up on long hot summer's day, and back home there is this WONDERFUL soda that is only made in the Carolinas that is simply so yummy, once you taste it you're pretty much hooked...that's right..CHEERWINE..IT'S SO GOOD !!!!!
..DID YOU KNOW...ONE can of pepsi in a load of luandrey can remove oil and grease stains from your clothes..the kind of oil and grease stains you get from working on cars I want to add...did you also know that a can of coke can remove hard water stains from your toilet and shower....AND did you know that a can of soda can remove that crusty white stuff off of your car battery...hmmm....now if can remove all that stuff what is it removing from the inside of my body when I drink it..."Besides the increasingly explored link between high fructose corn syrup and American obesity, there are questions about how heavy soda consumption reduces the effectiveness of some antibiotics and how it indirectly increases kids’ likelihood for osteoporosis (because they’re replacing milk with soft drinks and thus lacking calcium). While we can’t believe every anti-soda claim, if even a fraction of them are true, we need to change our habits."

"Waist Widener Sweetened drinks can pack on the pounds. If, on average, we're drinking 18 ounces of liquid candy daily, we're adding about 225 calories to our diet. Over the course of a month, that's almost 7,000 additional calories, which can easily translate to a 2-pound gain. Over a year, these drinks could be adding 24 pounds to our bottom line." I don't know about any of you, but MY BOTTOM line, doesn't need any help....
"Drinking soda not only contributes to making people fat, but it also stresses the body's ability to process sugar. Some scientists now suspect that the sweet stuff may help explain why the number of Americans with type 2 diabetes has tripled from 6.6 million in 1980 to 20.8 million today."
So....this is it..wish me luck and good health, because the next 28 days are me giving up my need for soda...my need for the morning can of Dr. Pepper....my need for the ups guy to bring me my case of Cheerwine all the way from North Carolina...
can you please pass me the FiJi
... I'll only be drinking water now....*sigh*..this is DAY ONE and it is hard already, but I can do it...

Friday, April 4, 2008

I wouldn't last a day locked up....a lesson learned...

....It all started when I got pulled over at the end of the worst year ever (2007)

officer : " do you know why I pulled you over?"
Me : " No "
Officer: " Your right head light is out "
Me: " that's it"
Officer: " Yeah, are you driving home at this hour, do you live near by"
Me: " Two blocks down the street."
Officer: " I'm writing you a citation, go get it fixed."

later on the phone to my friend Kiyomi.. me: " Don't they have criminals to arrest... I WASN'T SPEEDING OR ANYTHING AND THE OTHER HEAD LIGHT WORKS! #$%^....%$#%#@$%! "

later that week,

Me: " Matt, can you help me replace a head light...I got a ticket for it."
Matt: " Do you mean you want me to fix it while you watch.."
Me: " I can watch tv while you fix it."
Matt: " Come over"
Me: " Thanks"

so I got it fixed..and time when by...and a letter came in the mail...

You didn't come in regarding your citation so now you have a fine.... $91

me: " $%#%$...%$^$%^" ( this was when I still had a potty mouth )

time went by....the money is on my dresser....I got a letter in the mail...

you didn't come in regarding your fine...your drivers license may be suspended....

(I no longer swear)


district court office
operator: " How can I help you?"
Me: "I got a notice in the mail about my license being suspended...I didn't pay a fine on time."
Operator: " Your Name"
Me: " Michelle"
Operator: " And your last name"
Me: "Oh yea, sorry...."
(I gave her my last name and the case number...there was a long pause."
Operator: " Michelle, um, well, there is a warrent out for your arrest now."
Me: " Please tell me you're kidding..are you serious...all for my head light.."
Operator: " AND you forgot to come in dear."
Me:" I've never been to jail...I've never been arrested..."
Operator: "It's okay dear, just bring in $164 and we can take care of it."
Me: " Or I go to Jail."

....do you know me? I wouldn't last a minute in JAIL! I can't even use a public rest room, let alone a potty in the middle of a cell...WHAT THE DEVIL? JAIL!

Me to boss: " I have to leave work early"
Boss Eric: " Why"
Me: " I have a warrant out for my arrest..I have to pay a bond or bail, I can't remember what the lady said, I have to pay today, and then take a paper to the DMV so they don't suspend my license"
Eric: " Can we call and tell them where to pick you up so you leave in handcuffs?"
Me: " Not funny..."
Eric: "Yes it is.."

I'm on the run from the law now...I'm going to run to the district court office so I can pay this whatever it is I have to pay....
NOTE TO SELF : Never put off til whenever what you really ought to do right now.

Monday, March 31, 2008

I need a nap

it's the middle of the day and I long for the days when I was in school and nap time was a requirement.. Oh I want a nap so bad.. I want to crawl under my desk and shut my eyes for few minutes....

Friday, March 28, 2008

So long Dirty Mouth

I can't believe it...My friend Reagan says that it takes 28 days to form a habit, or to break one... (it also takes 3 months to get in shape and 3 weeks to get out of shape) and with all that said... for the last 28 days I've been careful with what comes out of my mouth in the heat of the moment... I am no longer that potty mouth girl who says things like @%$# or %$@^&% I don't even use filler words that much, I just don't swear.. IT WAS SO HARD, like that one time when I almost got side swiped on my way home from work...or when this girl came into Velour and was so rude...ugh ^%$@&^, she made me so mad...but no.. I didn't cuss any of those people out and I even held my temper...SURPRISE SURPRISE...
In all honesty I've even had to stop myself mid swear, but I think it's okay, I mean, I went from swearing like a sailor to not in 28 days...give me a break...
hmm...what is there for me to do now...I feel like I can do other things now, what should I work on next...
I have noticed that I am mean...maybe I should work on that....

Friday, March 21, 2008

it's funny to me.....

okay...what about this one

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Happy Birthday JJ

There is not going to be 33 candles that you will not blow out on the cake that I will not take the time to make because you're not here to eat it...
And it sucks to think about what could have been...and remember when I use to think that 30 was old...but now I know that it's still young, and besides, you missed that birthday too...

Your mother put flowers down...
She always does...and I do my best not to run into her
I always do...

miss you

Saturday, March 15, 2008

An apology to Men EVERYWHERE

So... I'm that girl...that crazy girl who just can't be pleased sometimes..I don't mean to be, and I didn't know, or let myself realize that I was until yesterday afternoon...and I am totally okay with admitting it..in the hopes that I stop being that girl....
SERIOUSLY, sometimes I have to admit that for guys, with us ( Females) it's a lose/ lose situation.. How do they ( Men) put up with us?
STORY : last summer I was hanging out with this guy. He was nice, and we developed a fast friendship shortly after I stopped hanging out with this other guy who turned out to be a total ^%#@&*$ LOSER and ^%$# face , anyways, I was missing the little rat and friend guy decided to tell me what he thought of me... he was so kind when he let me know that I was a "independent woman with a GREAT personality and a GREAT head on her shoulders that any man would fall in love with on the spot". .. (now sweet huh) I was SO PISSED! What the heck kind of crap was that?!?! was he freaking kidding me? I went to work at my venue and told Corey how mad I was and why; and being the man that Corey is...Corey called me an IDIOT. you want to know why I was mad? I was mad because friend guy didn't say I was pretty...( SO SUE ME, I'M A GIRL)
...fast forward...I was hanging out with a new guy the other night , he's GREAT, he's AWESOME, he's CAPTAIN AWESOME...and he always says the sweetest things, the other night he tells me that I am "so beautiful and so fun"...cute huh? I was SO PISSED...you know why don't you, you're getting the way this is going by now....I was mad because Captain Awesome didn't say I was SMART! I want to be SMART and BEAUTIFUL...
Ah JEEZ...
I'd like to take this time to apologize to all the men in the world that I have screwed by acting this way... I'M SORRY!

Friday, March 14, 2008

I sometimes make out to Sports Center ( I wonder what my dad will think when he reads this title)

We're ranked 7th right now... I KNOW I am not on the team, but I LOVE this team, I've loved them since I was a little girl, I love them so much, I actually catch my breath every time they go to the line for a free throw, that's right.. I hold my breath and hope with all my might that , that ball goes in..I mean hello " Winners make free throws! " my blood pressure goes up, and my head aches the whole game...I need my cushion (that means a lead by no less than12) please let me have a cushion...For the love of Pete, let's not lose at home...if you trail at the end of the first half, you better come out strong in the 2nd half....What's that? a player wants to leave early for the NBA, no on this team (well not that often)
The ACC tournament started last night...and then March Madness starts...you don't know what March Madness is.. hmmm The BCS should take note...it's a college basketball tournament...this determines the best of the best and anything is possible, (i'll explain this more on sunday, now is not the time) Right now, before the madness, it's conference play time, who's the best in the conference, and the Atlantic Coast Conference is the strongest of them all...which is why my heart is pounding and I can't seem to catch my breath.. I want Duke to win so bad!! Please let us win, please! WE had a hard year last year, and this year we've done so well, with such a young team..we've come so far...Winning the conference will prove that you should NEVER underestimate how are you far can go if you REALLY want it, and I really want it for them...
I'm going to miss the game tonight because I have to work, but no worries Charlotte will text me the play by play as told to her by her husband...and I will check my phone every two minutes for that update and holler if I don't get one...cause I panic when I don't get one...
if they lose, bless those that bring it up, cause it won't be pretty! and for my family's sake, let them win so they don't have to put up with my bitterness...they love me so much they feel bad for me when Duke loses (except for Joe who will tease me relentlessly , until mom makes him stop)

and if they do win....I love to watch the highlights on sports center....

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

yes Louis you are right....It is a wonderful world

I've had this cold since last Saturday. I have this horrible cough, and my nose is tender from the hard tissues at work, I've since gone out and gotten myself the tissue with lotion in it...I like them better....
Winter seems like it will NEVER end, and I am sorely missing Sun Sun Mr. GOLDEN SUN...
Easter is coming and I am slowing making my new dress ( yes Veeda, I want a new dress for Easter, I'm THAT girl ) I hope to high heaven I don't have to wear snow boots with it....I hate being too cold...
with this cold, and this cough...I laughed at Missi today and her funny stories, and Becky too. I have 15 more days til I've broken my swearing habit (thanks LDC) I went outside for a break from work ( okay, what little work I do) and sat in what little patch of sunshine I could find outside my office....and Louis was right... It is a wonderful world....

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Family Time

Tonight I'm watching American Idol with my sister in law.... oh it's going to be a great night for us....

Friday, March 7, 2008

Gary Coleman is NOT NICE

I wanted to write some cute narrative about my experience yesterday at the DMV where I had the not so pleasant opportunity of seeing Gary Coleman and his not so lovely wife...but it wasn't fun, and they are not nice people.

there we were sitting in the DMV, Chris, Drew and myself and I noticed the mixed match couple first...the boys were not convinced that the little brown man in front of us was THE GARY COLEMAN, so we waited for them to get done and turn around so we could see his face, although I had just watched a re run of Different Stokes just that morning on BET, so I was sure it was him..Drew started chatting with an old friend (apparently everyone goes to the DMV) and Chris took a business call on his cell (who knew how long we'd have to wait, so why not) ...well the tall red head and the short black man got done with their business and turned to leave and sure enough, me and my group were not the only ones who took notice to the little man with the scowl on his face (he really looked mad at the world) Drew said wow, and I said, " I told you so" and Chris a little too loud said to the guy on the phone, " Hold on, I'm watching Gary Coleman leave the DMV." Now, Gary's wife heard this and as the two huffed their way out the door she yelled in this weird I believe she wanted to sound sarcastic or something " Everybody stare it's Gary Coleman" I was shocked, and Chris asked if she heard him, and I told him yeah, and he made a comment about her, but she didn't come back...hmm...at first I wanted to be embarrassed that little scenrio took place, but then I was like, um, Hello, it's freaking Gary Coleman from tv, who isn't going to look...and seriously, if he was that insecure about it..he should've been, I don't know a regular kid who grew up to be a cop or something. I mean, isn't the reason people go into acting is so that they can be famous and have people look at them...NO ONE was taking his picture or anything, people were just watching him leave the DMV for crying out loud, and hello mean lady, isn't the reason you married him the fact that he is Gary Coleman, you can't fool us...he's like, OLD and you're like 21...and honey, you're no Anna Nicole and Gary for sure isn't no J. Howard Marshall !

I saw Donny Osmond once at the Albertson's in Provo near 24 hour Fitness..and he was nice..so nice...

Monday, March 3, 2008

#$%@&*^ DRIVE ALREADY #$%#%$

" Um, Hey Lady...it's a stop sign, not a red light, you can go... CAN you PLEASE GO?!
There are no cars coming, you've clearly got the right of way, so you can go...What's that..oh I see, YOU'RE ON YOUR CELL PHONE..hmmm, shall I honk my horn to get you moving, or shall I just try to pass you...SERIOUSLY ...@#$%&^* DRIVE!
What..you're finally going to go and since you've pulled into the wrong lane you want to cut me off...I don't @#$%&^* think so..Why don't use your blinker lady, or how about this..GET OFF YOUR %$#@ PHONE, because it appears you are not a multi task type of lady...uh, no..driving and talking on your phone are not two things you should do together....nope they are not."

it takes 28 days to form a habit, and I haven't sworn in three full days.....

Friday, February 29, 2008

Change, Growth, Opportunity

In the sixth grade my teacher Mr. Johnson wrote in my year book, " Miss Michelle, Remember the golden rule, he who has the gold...makes the rule." he wrote " Have a great Summer in everyone else's year books... In 7th grade Bio, I told Mrs. Reid that I REFUSED to cut up a frog, and I took mine in the back and buried it at Garinger Sr. High School (I had to do three extra credit reports to make up the grade and keep my solid B) I made poster that said, "Animals deserve to rest in piece and not in pieces" and my friend drew this little dead rat and frog for me (I don't draw well) I gave up eating meat, and I listened to Victoria Williams and Michelle Shocked and I was informed. I was liberated. my sr. year of High School I published an article on Censorship and dedicated it to the principle ( I can't even remember her name) that told us to go out in the world and "Produce"..."Produce What? Was I being taught to be a robot, not speak up and have my own opinions" I asked her in her office when she informed that the article that I wrote on condoms couldn't be in the school newspaper, because this was high school...my friend gave birth the day after graduation, go figure.
A few months ago on the way to a business trip in Florida, I saw a couple of LDS missionaries getting ready to hop on planes back to their home towns...I wanted to be funny and so I told them.."don't be shocked when you get home, but just to let you know...things have changed...A Mormon, A Woman, and A Black guy are all running for president." I thought it was funny.
2008 is a time for new opportunities, and much growth...serious changes..not just for me, but for everyone.
February is OVER, and it seems already that so much has happened in two months... I don't know who I will vote for yet...but I like that I can vote...and I like how the year is going so far.. I like how saying that no matter what, this is my year, is making a difference in how I approach each day. hey, they haven't all been great days, and I've already shed some tears, but I am happier on the whole than I've been in AGES... 2008 is GREAT

and now for a public service announcement brought to you by Will.I.AM....

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Do as I say and not as I Do..um not so much

I studied sociology in school. I wanted to be a therapist and help people and change the world. I still want to somehow make the world a better place, but not as a therapist, but I digress...anyways, I did equine therapy for a few years.. I got certified and was able to be an assistant in this really cool unique form of therapy. Equine therapy is where you use horses in behavior modification..now before you get ahead of yourself, people do not ride the horse in some way to change their behavior, in fact, they don't even touch the horses ( minus the first task) for MONTHS. What happens is the people involved do a series of task with non verbal communication and no physical touch in order to get the horses to respond favorably. It's so neat and so intense..it's amazing to me how much horses act like humans in certain behaviors, my horse especially.. I love Birdie , again I digress...
I taught people that things are choices, you just do them...I say that to my cousins all the time too. I said it to my cousin Rachel just this past Sunday.. and alot in the past as well (Dang Rachel, pay attention, I'm tired of repeating myself) I was always like, there is no try. if you want to do something, you make a decision, a choice to do it, and you make it happen, to say you're going to try is saying that it CAN'T be done, and the only things that are truly impossible are the things we don't attempt to do. "Can't never did" , someone use to say to me...
Well, here is where I realize that I am just like that bratty teacher I had in the 5th grade that to this very minute, I cannot stand.. Ms.Craig UGH, how did I become her I do not know, but she would say stuff, and use that crap line " because I said" (who does that?) and then you would see her do the very thing she told us not to do..(I HATED THAT )
anyways, I have this problem see... I swear.. I swear alot.. I have a potty mouth, I talk like a sailor, I have a mouth I shouldn't kiss my mother with.. It's awful..and if i kept up my swear jar, I'd have enough to buy my cousin Charlotte a trip out here first class , round trip...oh my, it's bad.. and I say, like I tell people not to say.. " I'll try" to stop...hmmm...I'm a hypocrite.. I suck...I'm horrible.. I'm guilt ridden..and right now, at this moment (actually from this afternoon on) I will no longer, that's right, I'm stopping right now (this afternoon) and I am no longer, never again a girl with a potty mouth. I'm not that girl that cusses out the little kids that mosh in her venue, I will no longer be the girl that swears at that little old lady that cuts me off in five o'clock traffic, I'm not going to cuss or fuss if in frustration ..nope, not me...like "orbit", I'm going to have a clean mouth.
I just need to say it, and just do it, and make that decision and stick with, cause if I can't do that, then deep down, I'm saying I don't want to..and I DO, I REALLY DO! I'm not a mean girl, I was just a girl with a potty mouth though..so in closing, I'd like to thank you VERY much to my very good friend who helped me realize what a hypocrite I've been to my sweet cousins, and that I too need to stop giving myself excuses, and easy outs...
So...if I swear, call me on it, and remind me of how bad I felt this afternoon..and give me 28 days (that's how long it takes to form a habit) and I will no longer need the cuss jar..I'll be a swearing free girl, young lady

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Broken Record ( Formally Todd's )

I seriously need to get better at blogging.. I'm not going to lie, I feel the pressure of having something totally interesting and informative to say... I read the blogs of my friends and I wish that somehow my life could be just as interesting...and it's not... but the other day I had the best time ever with my friend Mandi and low and behold it is something worth sharing.
Mandi's boyfriend Jacob is the cook at a salt lake city bar called Broken Record ( formally Todd's) and they have a completly Vegaen menu...now I am not one for Tofu, but Jacob did give Mandie a funny look when she told him that I would perfer eggs in my breakfast burrito instead of the tofu that he is known for...so I changed my mind and went with the tofu, since I'm flawed and want to please everyone and sometimes do not think for myself...and...it was good. Um, so yeah I liked it. I didn't finish it, but it was seriously yummy..So this time,it's okay that I didn't do what I wanted to do, but did what someone else thought I should do...now, eating at a bar is not something I do normally, and I know it's not something alot of my friends do either, but if you get the chance, order some thing to go..and eat it somewhere else, but seriously, try Jacob's tofu..it tasted just like eggs, but better.
here is a picture of cute Jake making tufo look like eggs and my cute friend Mandi kissing the cook good bye on our way out..

Friday, February 22, 2008

Black History Month

Me:" Corey on your way to Velour can you do me a HUGE favor?"
Corey." What is it?"
Me. " I got a package delivered and I need you to take it to Velour so no one takes it."
Corey." What is it?"
Me." My hair"
( laughing)
Me." yes, in a box, and so go it, cause it's expensive."
(laughing) Corey" Some dog's probably running down the street with your hair."
Me; " it's in a box."
Corey." Sure, I'll go get your hair off the front porch"
Me." thanks, I'll pick it up tonight"

Did You Know?

To recall and celebrate the positive contributions to our nation made by people of African descent, American historian Carter G. Woodson established Black History Week. The first celebration occured February 12, 1926. For many years, the second week of February was set aside for this celebration to coincide with the birthdays of Black abolitionist/editor Frederick Douglass and Abraham Lincoln. In 1976, as part of the nation's bicentennial, the week was expanded into Black History Month.
Population Distribution

- As of July 1, 2005, there were an estimated 39.7 million black residents in the United States, including those of more than one race. They made up 13.4 percent of the total U.S. population. This figure represents an increase of half a million residents from one year earlier.

- The projected single-race black population of the United States as of July 1, 2050 is 61.4 million. On that date, according to the projection, blacks would constitute 15 percent of the nation's total population.

- The estimated black population of New York on July 1, 2004 was 3.5 million, the highest of any state. Four other states had black populations that surpassed 2 million: Florida, Texas, California and Georgia. About 85,900 blacks were added to Florida's population between July 1, 2003, and July 1, 2004. That is the largest numeric increase of any state in the nation. Georgia and Texas added 61,800 and 45,000, respectively.

- As of July 1, 2004, 59 percent of the District of Columbia's population was identified as black - the highest rate for this race group of any state or state-equivalent in the nation. The District of Columbia was followed by Mississippi (37 percent), Louisiana (33 percent) and Georgia, Maryland and South Carolina (30 percent each).

- 1.4 million blacks lived in Cook County, Ill., as of July 1, 2005. Cook led all the nation's counties in the number of people of this racial category. Broward County, Fla., had the largest numerical increase (17,900) between 2003 and 2004. Los Angeles County, CA., also topped the 1 million mark.

- 31% of the black population was under 18 as of July 1, 2005. At the other end of the spectrum, 8 percent of the black population was 65 or older.

- $88.6 billion in revenues for black-owned businesses in 2002, up 24 percent from 1997. The number of black-owned businesses totaled 1.2 million in 2002, up by 45 percent since 1997. Black-owned firms accounted for 5 percent of all nonfarm businesses in the United States.

- 129,329: The number of black-owned firms in New York in 2002, which led all states. New York City alone had 98,080 such firms, which led all cities.

- 10,716: The number of black-owned firms operating in 2002 with receipts of $1 million or more. These firms accounted for 1 percent of the total number of black-owned firms in 2002 and 55 percent of their total receipts, or $49 billion.

- 969: The number of black-owned firms with 100 or more employees in 2002. Firms of this size accounted for 24 percent of the total revenue for black owned employer firms in 2002, or $16 billion.

- 80% of blacks age 25 and older had at least a high school diploma in 2005. In states such as Colorado, the proportion was even higher - 90 percent. (Source: 2005 American Community Survey)

- 17% of blacks 25 and older had a bachelor's degree or higher in 2005. In many states, the rate was higher. Twenty-six percent of blacks this age in Colorado, for instance, had this level of education. (Source: 2005 American Community Survey)

- 1.1 million blacks age 25 and older had an advanced degree in 2005 (e.g., master's, Ph.D., M.D. or J.D.). Ten years earlier - in 1995 - only 677,000 blacks had this level of education.

- For the 2005 school year, 2.3 million black college students were enrolled. This was an increase of roughly 1 million from 15 years earlier.
Income, Poverty and Health Insurance

- The annual median income of black households in 2005 is $30,858. In constant dollars, this is up from $25,642 in 1985.

- $33,077: The 2005 median earnings of black men 15 years old and over who worked full time, year-round. This compares to the median earnings of $29,672 for corresponding black women.

- The poverty rate in 2004 for those reporting black as their only race was 24.9%. This rate was down from 31.3% in 1985.

- 60% of black citizens age 18 and older voted in the 2004 presidential election. That amounted to 14 million voters. The percentage of those voting is up 3 percentage points from the previous election. Blacks had the highest turnout rate of any minority group in 2004.

- 19.6% of blacks lacked health insurance in 2005.
Families and Children

- There are 9.1 million black families in the United States. Of these, nearly one-half (47 percent) are married-couple families.

- 11% of black children live in a household maintained by a grandparent.

- 46% of black householders own their own home, nationally. The rate was higher in certain states, such as Mississippi, where it reached 56 percent.
Military Service

- There are 2.4 million black military veterans in the United States in 2004. (Source: American FactFinder)

- 26% of blacks age 16 and older work in management, professional and related occupations. (Source: American FactFinder)

- There are 44,000 black physicians and surgeons; 79,400 postsecondary teachers; 45,200 lawyers; and 49,300 chief executives. (Source: Upcoming Statistical Abstract of the United States: 2007)

Data courtesy of the U.S. Census Bureau

Monday, February 18, 2008

Be Comfortable in your Genes

National Eating Disorders Awareness Week highlights the fact that body size and shape are strongly influenced by biological factors – such as genetics, while also calling attention to some of the new discoveries surrounding the role of genetics in the development of eating disorders.

Too often individuals struggle against their natural, genetically influenced size just to fit into that pair of “skinny jeans” in the back of their closets. Fighting your natural size and shape can lead to unhealthy dieting practices, poor body image and sometimes eating disorders.

"Question Messages Portrayed in the Media: The media sends powerful messages to girls and women about the acceptability (or unacceptability) of their bodies. Young girls are thought to compare themselves to women portrayed as successful in the media, assessing how closely they match up to the "ideal" body form. Unfortunately, the majority of girls and women (96%) do not match up to the models and actresses presented in the media. The average model is 5'10" and weighs 110 pounds, whereas the average women is 5'4" and weighs 142 pounds. This is the largest discrepancy that has ever existed between women and the cultural ideal. This discrepancy leads many women and girls to feel inadequate and negative about their bodies. It is important to realize that only 4% of women genetically have the "ideal" body currently presented in the media, the other 96% of women feel they must go to extreme measures to attempt to reach this unobtainable image. Many of the images presented in the media have been computer enhanced and airbrushed. The models' hips and waists have often been slimmed and their breasts enlarged through computer photo manipulation. Many of the women presented in the media suffer from an eating disorder or have adopted disordered eating behaviors to maintain such low body weights. It is important to start to question images in the media and question why women should feel compelled to "live up" to these unrealistic standards of beauty and thinness."

Warm Weather Boosts Mood, Broadens The Mind

ScienceDaily (2004-10-07) -- Get out for at least 30 minutes. The positive impact warm, sunny weather can have on mental health and mood are real, according to new University of Michigan research.

See..it's not just me..everyone needs sunshine to be happy and healthy... I need a freaking vacation from this dang weather...

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Heart Love You Day

I missed the old days where the girls ( lisa, Angel, and sharmila,) would spend this day together... Lisa, how could I ever forget " To Mr. Martinelli, who makes a damn good drink." fun times... all in all though, this , today being the first year without ANY of my girls or a "love" has been a WONDERFUL day... and so far it truly is turning out to be one of the best years of my life... I am truly blessed... my heart is full.

and on a lighter note, a video that made me laugh out loud... I will have adorable kids one day

( please pause my music first so you can hear this little kid)

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Frozen in Grand Central

I couldn't stand still for 30 seconds!

Monday, February 11, 2008

2008 is going to be GREAT

remember that scene in "Goonies" where they are down in the well and Mikey is yelling at at everyone, he yells" Out there, that's their time, it's THEIR time, but us, in here..this is our time... It's OUR TIME."

Every year that sucked, or didn't go the way I wanted it to, doesn't matter anymore... My life is not ment to be easy I know that by now, but in the end, it would have all been worth it...and right now, this year, this moment....is mine... I was ment for this right now. and I'm yelling "this.... right now, it's my time, it's MY time."

I am not without the knowledge that some things may go wrong, some things may not work out..but for the most part...2008 is my year, my time to shine..and 2008 is going to be GREAT!

...."things are gonna change I can feel it...."

the best christmas present ever!

the best christmas present ever!


There is no use trying, said Alice; one can't believe impossible things. I dare say you haven't had much practice, said the Queen. When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.

I am the queen and this is my year, and nothing, NOTHING is impossible

the family dog....so spoiled...but look at his face!

the family dog....so spoiled...but look at his face!

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