Do as I say and not as I Do..um not so much

I studied sociology in school. I wanted to be a therapist and help people and change the world. I still want to somehow make the world a better place, but not as a therapist, but I digress...anyways, I did equine therapy for a few years.. I got certified and was able to be an assistant in this really cool unique form of therapy. Equine therapy is where you use horses in behavior modification..now before you get ahead of yourself, people do not ride the horse in some way to change their behavior, in fact, they don't even touch the horses ( minus the first task) for MONTHS. What happens is the people involved do a series of task with non verbal communication and no physical touch in order to get the horses to respond favorably. It's so neat and so intense..it's amazing to me how much horses act like humans in certain behaviors, my horse especially.. I love Birdie , again I digress...
I taught people that things are choices, you just do them...I say that to my cousins all the time too. I said it to my cousin Rachel just this past Sunday.. and alot in the past as well (Dang Rachel, pay attention, I'm tired of repeating myself) I was always like, there is no try. if you want to do something, you make a decision, a choice to do it, and you make it happen, to say you're going to try is saying that it CAN'T be done, and the only things that are truly impossible are the things we don't attempt to do. "Can't never did" , someone use to say to me...
Well, here is where I realize that I am just like that bratty teacher I had in the 5th grade that to this very minute, I cannot stand.. Ms.Craig UGH, how did I become her I do not know, but she would say stuff, and use that crap line " because I said" (who does that?) and then you would see her do the very thing she told us not to do..(I HATED THAT )
anyways, I have this problem see... I swear.. I swear alot.. I have a potty mouth, I talk like a sailor, I have a mouth I shouldn't kiss my mother with.. It's awful..and if i kept up my swear jar, I'd have enough to buy my cousin Charlotte a trip out here first class , round trip...oh my, it's bad.. and I say, like I tell people not to say.. " I'll try" to stop...hmmm...I'm a hypocrite.. I suck...I'm horrible.. I'm guilt ridden..and right now, at this moment (actually from this afternoon on) I will no longer, that's right, I'm stopping right now (this afternoon) and I am no longer, never again a girl with a potty mouth. I'm not that girl that cusses out the little kids that mosh in her venue, I will no longer be the girl that swears at that little old lady that cuts me off in five o'clock traffic, I'm not going to cuss or fuss if in frustration ..nope, not me...like "orbit", I'm going to have a clean mouth.
I just need to say it, and just do it, and make that decision and stick with, cause if I can't do that, then deep down, I'm saying I don't want to..and I DO, I REALLY DO! I'm not a mean girl, I was just a girl with a potty mouth though..so in closing, I'd like to thank you VERY much to my very good friend who helped me realize what a hypocrite I've been to my sweet cousins, and that I too need to stop giving myself excuses, and easy outs...
So...if I swear, call me on it, and remind me of how bad I felt this afternoon..and give me 28 days (that's how long it takes to form a habit) and I will no longer need the cuss jar..I'll be a swearing free girl, young lady