I need a nap

it's the middle of the day and I long for the days when I was in school and nap time was a requirement.. Oh I want a nap so bad.. I want to crawl under my desk and shut my eyes for few minutes....

So long Dirty Mouth

I can't believe it...My friend Reagan says that it takes 28 days to form a habit, or to break one... (it also takes 3 months to get in shape and 3 weeks to get out of shape) and with all that said... for the last 28 days I've been careful with what comes out of my mouth in the heat of the moment... I am no longer that potty mouth girl who says things like @%$# or %$@^&% I don't even use filler words that much, I just don't swear.. IT WAS SO HARD, like that one time when I almost got side swiped on my way home from work...or when this girl came into Velour and was so rude...ugh ^%$@&^, she made me so mad...but no.. I didn't cuss any of those people out and I even held my temper...SURPRISE SURPRISE...
In all honesty I've even had to stop myself mid swear, but I think it's okay, I mean, I went from swearing like a sailor to not in 28 days...give me a break...
hmm...what is there for me to do now...I feel like I can do other things now, what should I work on next...
I have noticed that I am mean...maybe I should work on that....

it's funny to me.....

okay...what about this one

Happy Birthday JJ

There is not going to be 33 candles that you will not blow out on the cake that I will not take the time to make because you're not here to eat it...
And it sucks to think about what could have been...and remember when I use to think that 30 was old...but now I know that it's still young, and besides, you missed that birthday too...

Your mother put flowers down...
She always does...and I do my best not to run into her
I always do...

miss you

An apology to Men EVERYWHERE

So... I'm that girl...that crazy girl who just can't be pleased sometimes..I don't mean to be, and I didn't know, or let myself realize that I was until yesterday afternoon...and I am totally okay with admitting it..in the hopes that I stop being that girl....
SERIOUSLY, sometimes I have to admit that for guys, with us ( Females) it's a lose/ lose situation.. How do they ( Men) put up with us?
STORY : last summer I was hanging out with this guy. He was nice, and we developed a fast friendship shortly after I stopped hanging out with this other guy who turned out to be a total ^%#@&*$ LOSER and ^%$# face , anyways, I was missing the little rat and friend guy decided to tell me what he thought of me... he was so kind when he let me know that I was a "independent woman with a GREAT personality and a GREAT head on her shoulders that any man would fall in love with on the spot". .. (now sweet huh) I was SO PISSED! What the heck kind of crap was that?!?! was he freaking kidding me? I went to work at my venue and told Corey how mad I was and why; and being the man that Corey is...Corey called me an IDIOT. you want to know why I was mad? I was mad because friend guy didn't say I was pretty...( SO SUE ME, I'M A GIRL)
...fast forward...I was hanging out with a new guy the other night , he's GREAT, he's AWESOME, he's CAPTAIN AWESOME...and he always says the sweetest things, the other night he tells me that I am "so beautiful and so fun"...cute huh? I was SO PISSED...you know why don't you, you're getting the way this is going by now....I was mad because Captain Awesome didn't say I was SMART! I want to be SMART and BEAUTIFUL...
Ah JEEZ...
I'd like to take this time to apologize to all the men in the world that I have screwed by acting this way... I'M SORRY!

I sometimes make out to Sports Center ( I wonder what my dad will think when he reads this title)

We're ranked 7th right now... I KNOW I am not on the team, but I LOVE this team, I've loved them since I was a little girl, I love them so much, I actually catch my breath every time they go to the line for a free throw, that's right.. I hold my breath and hope with all my might that , that ball goes in..I mean hello " Winners make free throws! " my blood pressure goes up, and my head aches the whole game...I need my cushion (that means a lead by no less than12) please let me have a cushion...For the love of Pete, let's not lose at home...if you trail at the end of the first half, you better come out strong in the 2nd half....What's that? a player wants to leave early for the NBA, no on this team (well not that often)
The ACC tournament started last night...and then March Madness starts...you don't know what March Madness is.. hmmm The BCS should take note...it's a college basketball tournament...this determines the best of the best and anything is possible, (i'll explain this more on sunday, now is not the time) Right now, before the madness, it's conference play time, who's the best in the conference, and the Atlantic Coast Conference is the strongest of them all...which is why my heart is pounding and I can't seem to catch my breath.. I want Duke to win so bad!! Please let us win, please! WE had a hard year last year, and this year we've done so well, with such a young team..we've come so far...Winning the conference will prove that you should NEVER underestimate how are you far can go if you REALLY want it, and I really want it for them...
I'm going to miss the game tonight because I have to work, but no worries Charlotte will text me the play by play as told to her by her husband...and I will check my phone every two minutes for that update and holler if I don't get one...cause I panic when I don't get one...
if they lose, bless those that bring it up, cause it won't be pretty! and for my family's sake, let them win so they don't have to put up with my bitterness...they love me so much they feel bad for me when Duke loses (except for Joe who will tease me relentlessly , until mom makes him stop)
and if they do win....I love to watch the highlights on sports center....

yes Louis you are right....It is a wonderful world

I've had this cold since last Saturday. I have this horrible cough, and my nose is tender from the hard tissues at work, I've since gone out and gotten myself the tissue with lotion in it...I like them better....
Winter seems like it will NEVER end, and I am sorely missing Sun Sun Mr. GOLDEN SUN...
Easter is coming and I am slowing making my new dress ( yes Veeda, I want a new dress for Easter, I'm THAT girl ) I hope to high heaven I don't have to wear snow boots with it....I hate being too cold...
with this cold, and this cough...I laughed at Missi today and her funny stories, and Becky too. I have 15 more days til I've broken my swearing habit (thanks LDC) I went outside for a break from work ( okay, what little work I do) and sat in what little patch of sunshine I could find outside my office....and Louis was right... It is a wonderful world....

Family Time

Tonight I'm watching American Idol with my sister in law.... oh it's going to be a great night for us....

Gary Coleman is NOT NICE

I wanted to write some cute narrative about my experience yesterday at the DMV where I had the not so pleasant opportunity of seeing Gary Coleman and his not so lovely wife...but it wasn't fun, and they are not nice people.

there we were sitting in the DMV, Chris, Drew and myself and I noticed the mixed match couple first...the boys were not convinced that the little brown man in front of us was THE GARY COLEMAN, so we waited for them to get done and turn around so we could see his face, although I had just watched a re run of Different Stokes just that morning on BET, so I was sure it was him..Drew started chatting with an old friend (apparently everyone goes to the DMV) and Chris took a business call on his cell (who knew how long we'd have to wait, so why not) ...well the tall red head and the short black man got done with their business and turned to leave and sure enough, me and my group were not the only ones who took notice to the little man with the scowl on his face (he really looked mad at the world) Drew said wow, and I said, " I told you so" and Chris a little too loud said to the guy on the phone, " Hold on, I'm watching Gary Coleman leave the DMV." Now, Gary's wife heard this and as the two huffed their way out the door she yelled in this weird I believe she wanted to sound sarcastic or something " Everybody stare it's Gary Coleman" I was shocked, and Chris asked if she heard him, and I told him yeah, and he made a comment about her, but she didn't come back...hmm...at first I wanted to be embarrassed that little scenrio took place, but then I was like, um, Hello, it's freaking Gary Coleman from tv, who isn't going to look...and seriously, if he was that insecure about it..he should've been, I don't know a regular kid who grew up to be a cop or something. I mean, isn't the reason people go into acting is so that they can be famous and have people look at them...NO ONE was taking his picture or anything, people were just watching him leave the DMV for crying out loud, and hello mean lady, isn't the reason you married him the fact that he is Gary Coleman, you can't fool us...he's like, OLD and you're like 21...and honey, you're no Anna Nicole and Gary for sure isn't no J. Howard Marshall !


I saw Donny Osmond once at the Albertson's in Provo near 24 hour Fitness..and he was nice..so nice...

#$%@&*^ DRIVE ALREADY #$%#%$

" Um, Hey Lady...it's a stop sign, not a red light, you can go... CAN you PLEASE GO?!
There are no cars coming, you've clearly got the right of way, so you can go...What's that..oh I see, YOU'RE ON YOUR CELL PHONE..hmmm, shall I honk my horn to get you moving, or shall I just try to pass you...SERIOUSLY ...@#$%&^* DRIVE!
What..you're finally going to go and since you've pulled into the wrong lane you want to cut me off...I don't @#$%&^* think so..Why don't use your blinker lady, or how about this..GET OFF YOUR %$#@ PHONE, because it appears you are not a multi task type of lady...uh, no..driving and talking on your phone are not two things you should do together....nope they are not."



it takes 28 days to form a habit, and I haven't sworn in three full days.....