I didn't say it

do you ever wish you could go back in time and say what you wanted to say, at the very moment you should've said it? I'm not talking about some snippy comeback, or sharp reply.. I just mean.. well, I don't think anything is every going to be as sad as missing the opportunity to say something at the one time it should have been heard by others... what the heck is wrong with me I never speak up..

Plastic Beauty Queens

I Feel

He said, " Safe, when I'm with you, I feel safe...and at home."

What a wonderful feeling to have, when you feel that...

Isaac Russell - Lighthouse

I Love my friend Isaac...

What in the Future ?

Harry Potter is not real ( Although a really great series that I've read several times as well as seen EVERY movie, even the one with spiders) There is NO SUCH THING as magic... but today I wish there was. Today I  wish Divination  was real and I could pull out the old crystal ball and see what's in store for me. Was I always this IMPATIENT, good gosh... I'm standing still and inside screaming like Jane and Michael in Mary Poppins, " CAN WE GO, CAN WE GO"Can I JUST GO.. I have so much I want, I think that is where the problem lies.. wanting too much and not grateful enough for where I am at and what I have.. People can get lost in the wanting..but I also want to KNOW, I NEED TO KNOW.. I need a peek like a little kid covering their eyes and looking through the spaces in between their fingers... I want to see what I'm not allowed to.. 

 I'm so anxious I can't stand myself. I think I may be having a week.. I wish I knew..I just want to know what's in store...I mean... I just want a peek.. I'm the girl that if you've already seen the movie, I'll beg you to tell me the ending.. but I'll still want to see for myself... If you've read the book, tell me how it ends, but I'll still stay up reading every page. I need to know what to expect, should I brace myself for a bumpy ride, should I stretch out my arms and feel the wind on my faceand enjoy the moment because I'll want it to last forever?

Heaven Help me...

....choosing

"sometimes you just have to choose to have faith, even though it's hard..."